All posts by AlexsDatabaseOfThings

<p>eat Veins</p>

<p>youtube.com/watch?v=HmtcuC5ofvo</p>

<p>Oh God, I actually have a story about this.</p><p>See, it's actually rather debatable when I first discovered creepypasta I guess. This is my story.</p><p>
</p><p>I grew up around the internet. I've used the internet on a consistent basis since maybe 2007 and perhaps even 2006, and I was only two then for the most part. As such I've seen a lot over the years, a lot of things that terrified me and a lot of things that captivated me.</p><p>I wasn't very much into horror as a kid as much as I was into gore. I loved Mortal Kombat (still rather enjoy it to this day even if I do realise it's sorta dumb) and old animations like what was it called?, The Pit? Anyway I know I loved that sorta stuff, but that's obviously not horror in any capacity. MK had the over looming sensation of horror but that mainly lays in its goriness obviously.</p><p>
</p><p>I was five or six years old when I first saw a picture that changed my life and I didn't even realise it at the time.</p><p>
</p><p>Have any of you ever seen a video called 'Let me hear your war cry' and it's just this looping gif of a scene from Full Metal Jacket but their faces are replaced with what looks like baby doll faces and there's this raising tone which sounds very similar to moaning/screaming?</p><p>I was at my grandparents' house one evening while I was watching it. You see it was hilarious to me back then as I was sitting there on their shitty Windows Vista, and now it stands as a testament to the existence of fridge horror. When something is scary in hindsight. Whenever I watch that video now it disturbs me, and not even because of the memory I have associated with it. It's the video itself that makes me so uncomfortable in that scenario.</p><p>I guess you could say what I saw scarred me for life, even if by this point I am mostly desensitised, merely because of the fact that the memory has never left me. Or perhaps it is the real life equivalent of foreshadowing. Although I try to apply meaning to every childhood memory of mine and how it relates in juxtaposition with the current, obviously, I'm imperfect. Although I often say my life has one individual purpose, it is clearly untrue to anyone who can apply any sort of critical thinking, and even I am aware of this. However it is things like these which feel to say otherwise; feel to say, "relish in your own pretentiousness;" make a memoir out of your own body and soul, and the souls of those who relate to your story, inextricably connected to you now for all eternity written in the obscure facets of a corrupt fourteen year old online messaging board.</p><p>Three words and an image which change a life forever.</p><p>"Go to sleep" and the face of Jeff the fucking Killer in a YouTube recommendation feed, by user sesseur, in perhaps 2009 to 2011. God knows. Does it matter? All that matters is a six(?) year old saw the worst thing imaginable to itself.</p><p>True horror. Or so I thought.</p><p>I screamed. Kicked away from the monitor as children might do, probably. As if I remember that clearly. I remember I got over it pretty quickly. I remember I couldn't sleep that night though. Exhausted in the next day.</p><p>I didn't even watch the fucking video. I never did. Ironic, is it not? I was able to know something about him before I even knew about his character. He comes in the night, this fictional character; or I just associate the darkness with the horror in that age; after all he is shrouded in blackness most in the picture; perhaps that is what made the likes of Marble Hornets so terrifying when I first watched it, aged nine, and saw that it was in broad daylight.</p><p>But that's not the point. I forgot about it. Never looked into it. Was afraid to go back to a war cry video not for its contents which were scary, but rather the other sights it may bring by the fundamental means it used to bring itself, a recommendation.</p><p>So for a long time I was normal. Normal enough for a high-functioning kid, I mean.</p><p>Until 2013 when more recommendations started cropping up.</p><p>A channel called SomeOrdinaryGamers.</p><p>Surely just because the videos had the word "creepy" in the title I shouldn't have watched? Well, I wouldn't be here today if that were the case, even if Mutahar is a lying, plagiarising scumbag.</p><p>Touhou 14. What a simple name for a bad story that would lead me to both the darkest depths of myself and to the greatest inherent prosperities of my life.</p><p>It's been almost six years now.</p>

<p>The Showers definitely</p><p>House of Leaves even though most probably wouldn't consider it a creepypasta in spite of the fact that it was first made as an e-book in 1999 but it's greater than just your average creepypasta</p><p>Psychosis</p><p>Ted the Caver certainly</p><p>50 Foot Ant</p><p>(insert shameless self-promotion of my work here)</p>

<p>Terrifying. I'm crawling in my own skin</p>

<p>Ah, yes, they are a danger to our society at large</p>

<p>Meh, it's unstructured for the most part and should i actually structure my thoughts a lot of the impact would be lost. Plus it only makes sense in the context of this thread</p>

<p>I'm the only one who's voted for clockwork smh</p>

<p>Here's some theory I've gathered:</p><p>I'm not very much of a philosopher but this will deal mostly in some farce of the subject. You see I think that creepypasta was never taken seriously.</p><p>Certainly at some point before that stabbing it was taken *more* seriously, but even before that it was not considered an art form by many, and after the stabbing (along with the reputation of the normal fanbase being ruined merely by association) how people looked at it as it was growing faltered.</p><p>
</p><p>Ever since the stabbing, creepypasta has basically been dead and we're the likes who try to present ourselves as a sort of middle road which still exists. While we are part of *that* part of the fandom in majority, most of us also presumably aren't insane, much like the kids who did what they did. But there are those people out there -- in Scotland just a year ago a young girl was raped and murdered by a teenage man in the name of our old pal Slendy -- and obviously that isn't what we stand for. We are functioning members of society. We're just fans of a very niche type of horror and we're being made guilty by association.</p><p>Association with who you ask?</p><p>While we represent the ones who are functioning, it is the likes of Tobyrogers22, the Scottish rapist, and the stabbing girls who bring us down as fans of this niche. The same can be said for anything which follows the same practical guidelines.</p><p>While this "Tobyrogers22" will likely not go on to commit a crime of any real importance (this isn't an invitation to do that, kid), their mindset is the equivalent of the stabbing girls, who will be the prime focus of this rambling essay of sorts.</p><p>While the stabbing girls are the main ones who ruined this thing which once had true potential in my opinion, the likes of them existed here before and after their lasting mark. Of course most of them never went on to do much in relation to this which could be considerably 'heinous' but regardless the image you get in your mind when you picture them are still the same: obnoxious, whiny emo fangirls who have horrible parental issues and you should feel so sorry for them because of that! True Jessi Slaughters in nature.</p><p>That is caused by the fact that they're mostly tweens who are acting out on a large scale. Of course I'm not one to invalidate someone's feelings or experiences, anyone who really knows me well enough knows that I'm a pretty caring person, and some of these people use creepypasta as a means of escapism. Don't get all Evangelion on me and my stances but I'd say escapism is okay as long as it's used in small doses if that makes any sense, and even escapism in the context of our lovely spooky spaghetti is acceptable as long as it does not intrude on a person's normal human functionality and all. Again, the same can be said of anything, which is why cringe culture is relatively awful even if I do find it particularly enjoyable personally, so long as it doesn't get on anybody's ass and just uses them as a standpoint of how not to make a fool of yourself publicly.</p><p>Which is exactly what the stabbing girls and people like Tobyrogers22 are doing. They deserve to be assblasted with derision for how ridiculous they're being if I'm anything to go by.</p><p>As you know though kids will grow up and they'll, with time, become less like that (I know this because I was just like them back when I was 8 and just got into creepypasta almost six years ago now at the time of writing). I think that the stabbing girls were a hugely unfortunate mistake, but a mistake made by chance. Nobody thought that people like Tobyrogers22 were capable of doing anything -- any living, breathing person is as capable of an atrocity as the next -- and although most of us will never do anything as bad as those kids did, it does call into question the mental stability of fans, much like you and I, in the public view.</p><p>
</p><p>Creepypasta is dead because of those kids but we're still around to haunt the internet and stay in our own little circle; remain unaccepted based purely on the assessment that just because two stupid kids almost killed an innocent kid, every single person well-endowed in the culture of this online horror subgenre must be the same way. Obviously that is far from the case, but nevertheless there is next to nothing we can do as people to salvage this. We will probably forever be looked at as a blemish on the face of the internet due in most part to the cancer that is the likes of Tobyrogers22, past, present, and future.</p><p>I dunno that's just a pessimist's thoughts.</p><p>Perhaps there is some way we might be able to fix everything, but if there is a way I don't know it. One that isn't outlandish. That's not my point anyways though. My point is that creepypasta was ruined by the very same people who share Tobyrogers22's mindset, and we're stuck with these people who believe that trying to make your fiction real with such vehemence that it may begin to distort your perception of reality and cause you to literally kill people is acceptable, or they're some naive kids. Most likely the latter.</p><p>Doesn't mean we can't point and laugh at them for how stupid they look unless they're a tulpamancer or some shit. Cheers.</p><p>
</p><p>Much love,</p><p>Alex Marki</p>

<p>This is just the stuff that 8-12 year olds generally say but anybody who's irrational (as per reasons internalism here, as a reasons internalist) could potentially say it so</p><p>
</p><p>I have a lot of thoughts on this subject and I'd love to share them in this thread as a mockery if you're willing to listen</p>